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“It's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching and rarely discovered--so many locks not enough keys.”
-Sarah Dessen

"Happiness doesn't come from doing what you like, but rather, loving what you do."
-Becca & Scott (JC & AC)


Thursday, January 31, 2013

Broken Trees


In this sliver of nothing,
Absence,
It holds everything.

Demons,
They try to cut normality,
Shape it,
In their unwilling, vastly envious,
Hands.

Shape it,
So that the insanity,
Might fall through the cracks,
Of their wisps we call fingers.

The memories,
Held up by long, ever stretching pillars,
Trees,
That, in the making,
Seem to lost themselves.

And,
Like a cell,
We are enclosed in strips of irrationality.
Memories,
Of broken trees.

Friday, January 25, 2013

TEA!


Author’s Note: In this word choice and context piece, I tried using parallel structure with punctuation from Edgar Allan Poe’s piece “The Tell Tale Heart” to try and add the same… madness to this piece. Using symbolism, metaphors, and other syntactical devices also added to the insanity of this well known character.




TEA!—clean cup, clean cup—move down!  Time—time, it marches on its stomach—we have got no time! No time. None—none! 

They look at me like I am—what?—insane! Their deranged eyes penetrate through me as if they are inflicted with some kind of madness—yes, madness indeed. Their lopsided smirks trying to bring me to—to the-- the insanityness of the world. Their rather wonky hats sit atop their askew heads. Indeed, two negatives make a positive—does that imply that their crooked hats don’t sit atop their crooked heads? That their hats sit atop their heads? I contemplate—NOT!
Especially that—cursed, yes, cursed!—rabbit! “Late I’m, late I’m, late I’m goodbye, hello, say to time no, date important very a for late I’m late I’m!” Surely he too is mad—he carries a pocket watch telling time two days slow, of course he is late!—the watch is full of wheels! Can you believe it? Wheels and springs—tickers and tockers! I fancy jamming the bloody thing with butter—of only the best—tea, mustard—yes, but mustard?! Don’t I be silly! LEMON, lemon—yes, that’s different—indeed that’s…

Tea... immaculate, immaculate... move down.  Time... time, it marches on its stomach... we have got no time. No time. None... none.

What is the hatter with me?

Friday, January 18, 2013

All Since

Author's Note: This is a comparative essay used in Social Studies to compare the book "My Brother Sam is Dead" to the movie "The Patriot". Enjoy!


What if you were living in a world where you had to worry about wars starting in your own backyard? Or if you had to take over the responsibilities and obligations of your older brother who had just abandoned you and your family to fend for themselves as he fought for the American Country? What if, given the circumstances, you were forced to change from an immature, young boy, to a sensible man in a matter of months? Both Thomas Martin from The Patriot, directed by Roland Emmerich, and Tim Meeker from My Brother Sam is Dead, written by James Lincoln Collier and Christopher Collier have dealt with these issues since their older brothers have gone to war.

Both Revolutionary War based stories start with Thomas and Tim torn between two sides of the Revolution, and two sides of their families.  The fathers of each family, Benjamin Martin and “Father” Meeker, don’t necessarily support the King’s devious actions, but at the same time, want to keep their families together. They do not support their eldest sons, Gabriel Martin and Sam Meeker, leaving the nest to face so many dangers. Thomas and Tim are left undecided between two sides of their now separated families—brother or father…. All since their brothers went to war.

No matter what side both brothers choose, they will always have that admiration for their brothers that all siblings have for each other. They will stick up for one another no matter the circumstances, no matter the cost, and this theory is portrayed perfectly in both stories when Thomas and Tim stick up for their older brothers. Thomas Martin’s older brother is practically captured by the British after a small fight at their house, and Thomas tries knock the British off his brother, and in return, costs him his life. A less tragic version of this happens in My Brother Sam is Dead, when Sam is sentenced to death, and Tim musters enough courage to talk to the General, and try to release Sam. Lives are taken, all since their  brothers went to war.

Not only are both Thomas and Tim torn between two sides of their families, and they both are willing to cost their lives for their brothers, but both of these pieces end in death of the older brother. Although Thomas is already waiting for Gabriel, Tim has the burden of not only living his life knowing that his older brother is dead, but to make matters worse, is awed to watch his brother die. Even after their families were ripped apart, and everyone had to make sacrifices because of Sam and Gabriel’s leaving, they both ended up dead whether or not it was fair… and all since their brothers went to war.

All since their brothers went to war, families are broken. All since their brothers went to war, lives are taken. All since their brothers went to war, tragic stories are released. All since their brothers went to war, their fathers live a life of regret. All since their brothers went to war, six year old girls live with death lurking around them. All since their brothers went to war.

All since their brothers went to war.

Here Today POV

     Author's Note: This is my POV piece using the book "Here Today" by Ann M. Martin. The first section was taken from the book (pages 195 to 197) from Ellie's point of view, and I used this text to change the point of view to Doris's view. Please leave feedback!


        Ten minutes later, the five Dingmans, some of them groggy, were seated at their kitchen table. Doris wore an apron and walked around the table, serving doughnuts as if she were Lorna the waitress.
       "Isn't this nice?" she said.
     Ellie looked out the kitchen window at the dreary day. A fine drizzle was falling, and a mist had set in. She peered at the thermometer outside the window. Forty-two degrees. And she shivered. But she had to agree that sitting around the kitchen table with her family, a plate of doughnuts, and Kiss leaning against her legs, was very nice indeed.
       "It's great," said Marie, her mouth full of chocolate doughnut. "Can we have doughnuts every morning?"
       "Well, hon, I don't know about that. I guess it will be up to your father."
       "Up to Daddy? Why?" asked Marie.
       "Yeah, why?" echoed Albert.
     Before Doris answered, before any words left her mouth, Ellie felt her own mouth go dry. She set her half-eaten doughnut down on her plate and looked all around the kitchen-- at the cupboards with the chipped green paint, at the plate shaped like a fish that had been hanging over the doorway for as long as she could remember, at the section of counter between the oven and the refrigerator that the Dingmans had called the Messy Corner-- but she couldn't look at Doris. Ellie let her eyes droop to her plate again, to the remains of the doughnut and waited for Doris's answer.
       "Why?" repeated Doris. "Well... because-- because of my exciting news!" Doris pushed her chair away from the table. She stood up and began to speak. As she spoke, she moved around the table standing behind each of the Dingmans in turn, her hands on their shoulders. "I've been doing a lot of thinking," Doris said. "That's where I've been the last couple of days. I needed to think."
     "I can think in our house," said Albert.
     Doris removed her hands from Albert's shoulders and leaned around to look into his eyes. "Well, I couldn't," she said. "Not about this."
     She moved on to Marie. "It's hard to know where to begin."
     "Begin at the beginning," said Marie, tipping her head back and smiling at Doris.
     And Ellie thought, She doesn't know. Marie doesn't know that this is bad news.
       "It's even hard to know where the beginning is," said Doris. "I think the beginning was a long time ago. Maybe before you were born. But the thing is... what I've been thinking about..." Doris drew in a deep breath and moved on to Ellie. "The thing is... life is short." (195-197)



       Ten minutes later, the five Dingmans, some of them groggy, were seated at the kitchen table. I bustled from place mat to place mat, serving doughnuts the way some women wear their makeup-- to cover what was coming.
     "Isn't this nice?" I said, maintaining the act. Man, I'll make it to "The Ed Sullivan Show" without a problem with this kind of performance!
      I continued to whirl around the kitchen, a tornado of doughnuts, OJ, and sticky hands. Only a few more hours and this will all be over, I thought. Although, doughnuts won't repair anything at this point-- I have already made my way out of this life.
       "It's great," said Marie, her mouth full of chocolate doughnut. "Can we have doughnuts every morning?"
       "Well, hon, I don't know about that. I guess it will be up to your father."
       "Up to Daddy? Why?" asked Marie.
       "Yeah, why?" echoed Albert.
     I paused, unsure of how to start. Utterly shamed. Oh well, it's not like I'm gonna see them again....
     "Why?" I awkwardly repeated. "Well... because-- because of my exciting news!" I stood up, and confidently pushed my chair away from the table. I began to speak. As I started, I moved around the table standing behind each of the Dingmans in turn, my hands on their shoulders. "I've been doing a lot of thinking," I said. "That's where I've been the last couple of days. I needed to think."
       "I can think in our house," said Albert.
      I removed my hands from Albert's shoulders and leaned around to look into his eyes. Motherly enough, right? "Well, I couldn't," I said, fairly irritated on the inside-- Why does he have to be so stubborn? "Not about this."
I moved on to Marie. "It's hard to know where to begin."
       "Begin at the beginning," said Marie, tipping her head back and smiling at me. Ugh, that ugly, toothy, smile... she doesn't know. She doesn't know what's coming. They don't know what's coming.
 "It's even hard to know where the beginning is," I replied. "I think the beginning was a long time ago. Maybe before you were born" Heck yeah, before you were born! Your birth made everything ten times worse!   "But the thing is... what I've been thinking about..." I drew in a deep breath and moved on to Ellie. Ellie knows. She always knew. D*** it, I have created a monster that has outsmarted me. "The thing is... life is short." 




Analysis: When this story is being told from Ellie's point of view, you as the reader feel pretty badly for Ellie-- from her point of view, she is being abandoned by her mom who had never stopped to care for her in the first place. Ellie has pieced together from her mother's actions in the past months that this is bad news-- "She doesn't know. Marie doesn't know that this is bad news." We also interpret, from Ellie's point of view, that Ellie is disappointed with her mother's lack of care-- "but she couldn't look at Doris." Once the view changes to Doris's interpretations, we see that Doris cares a lot about herself-- "I have already made my way out of this life."-- more than she cares about the upcoming of her kids. The changes were made from Ellie to Doris because both are very different characters. Ellie almost has a motherly instinct to her because of Doris, who is busy out in the world trying to "accomplish her dreams."


   

     

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Come Home OneRepublic

Author's Note: This is a song analysis of the piece "Come Home" by OneRepublic. Enjoy!
Hello world, hope you're listening-- The artist is awakening the world,  preparing to show us beauty.Forgive me if I’m young or speaking out of turnBut there’s someone I've been missing-- Suggests that he is searching for someone-- something. He is searching for freedom in this war.And I think that they could be the better half of me-- He wants a free person, a free him, not someone who is told what to do, wear, be. He is nothing without a free soul.They’re in the wrong place tryin' to make it right-- Implies that other soldiers, fighters are "in the wrong place" (across seas, away from their loved ones) and they are trying to "make it right" (killing souls for souls) but...But I'm tired of justifying-- He is done repeating himself, done telling others that you shouldn't have to kill other souls for you in return to receive your own. The war shouldn't be fighter to fighter.
So I say to you, come home, come home-- Not begging to the soldiers, but rather, a plea to freedom to come home.'Cause I’ve been waiting for ya for so long, for so long-- A realization that this soldier hasn't been waiting for this war to end, He has been waiting for liberty.And right now there's a war between the vanities-- Refers to the competition between excessive pride.But all I see is you and me-- When the artist looks in the mirror, he can only envision himself as a free man and nothing otherwise.And the fight for you is all I've ever known-- All he has in life, all he wants, is his liberty, and he puts all energy into it. The fight is all he has ever known.So come home
I get lost in the beauty of everything I see-- This guy has feelings that are the opposite of the rest of the world's. We are obsessed with material items, but he sees beauty in life.The world ain’t half as bad as they paint it to be-- I thought of women in particular when reading this line-- Americans are the only country to shave our legs, we wear cakes of make-up to cover our inner beauty, we look to superstars for inspiration, we spend half of our time on the scale deciding if we should or shouldn't eat that cupcake, we strive for perfection, when in reality, we already have it. We paint a beautiful world with flaws and problems.If all the sons and all the daughters stop to take it in-- No matter what color, no matter what religion, no matter what size, all of the sons and daughters of God, everyone, will see the beauty of the world as this guy sees it.Well hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin-- 
It might start now, yeahOr maybe I'm just dreaming out loud-- Isn't it sad that this person doesn't think that hate can subside and love can begin easily? He knows it will be tough, maybe even far from possible for the world to love.
But until then...Come home, come home'Cause I’ve been waiting for ya for so long, for so longut until then come home, come homeAnd right now there's a war between the vanitiesBut all I see is you and meAnd the fight for you is all I've ever known, ever knownSo come home, ooh
Everything I can’t be is everything you should be-- The audience changes from speaking to freedom itself to the citizens and the world he is trying to gain freedom for. If this guy is fighting in the war, he will probably never be free (he is taking the risk of death). He is fighting so that others in the country, others in next generations, will be free. Everything he can't be-- free-- is everything you should be-- free.And that’s why I need you here-- Now the artist narrows down the audience to specifically men and anyone willing to risk there life as this man is. He needs you here.Everything I can’t be is everything you should beAnd that’s why I need you here
So I say to you, come home, come home-- Not begging to the soldiers, but rather, a plea to freedom to come home.'Cause I’ve been waiting for ya for so long, for so long-- A realization that this soldier hasn't been waiting for this war to end, He has been waiting for liberty.And right now there's a war between the vanities-- Refers to the competition between excessive pride.But all I see is you and me-- When the artist looks in the mirror, he can only envision himself as a free man and nothing otherwise.And the fight for you is all I've ever known-- All he has in life, all he wants, is his liberty, and he puts all energy into it. The fight is all he has ever known.So come home, come home--  A last whisper in the night, the final plea-- come home.