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“It's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching and rarely discovered--so many locks not enough keys.”
-Sarah Dessen

"Happiness doesn't come from doing what you like, but rather, loving what you do."
-Becca & Scott (JC & AC)


Thursday, April 26, 2012

My Tell-Tale Heart


Author’s Note: As an assignment to analyze different points of views in “The Tell-Tale Heart” by Edgar Allan Poe, we were asked to look at the character’s point of view and make a decision as to whether or not they are reliable. By looking at the text evidence I found, I can infer that this character is not reliable; I found that he is insane and has lots of psychological issues—maybe just one more reason why this narrator should not be trusted. Our character’s point of view really sets up the whole story, though. His madness creates the interpretation of the piece as many things that he tells us he sees, aren’t all that or aren’t there at all.
While the craziness from one character’s point of view is on one side, there are always other characters that see the same situation in a different way. “The Tell-Tale Heart,” is based off of the murder of an old man—the murder probably seemed different to the victim rather than the criminal. If the story was being narrated by the criminal, you might initially think that the piece is about an old man who had done wrong, and the criminal is fixing that. If the story was being told through the victim’s eyes though, you may change your logic.
To portray this theory, I am re-writing “The Tell-Tale Heart” in the eyes of the old man.

             My butler had always dutifully fulfilled my requests as I silently retreated to my chamber. Every day, every night, the norm was as such.  Always complete thy duties, and thy shall be rewarded. And oh, did I reward that young fellow. Pounds by pounds, I paid the man with gold, money, and, perhaps most importantly, my trust. Although, my trust is something I gave up too easily, it is why I am here in the first place.
            Things began to change the day the young lad gained knowledge about my “evil eye.” It is said that those in which possessed “evil eye” would harm you greatly if looked into their gaze. Though I had believed the thought to simply be a myth, I cannot think of any other reason why I might have deserved this.
 My butler’s kindness shown through him that week as he had begun to check up on me nightly around the striking of twelve to make sure that I had not been harmed; recent burglaries were increasing my awareness and cautious greatly. That was my thinking then.  In theory, those doing more work should deserve more shillings, so I made sure to pay the man much when pay day came around. I had thought he deserved this reward, although now, I can only think of regret.
Perhaps it was just the trick of the light, but whenever I was calling him for duties, I would always catch him staring at me, at my eye. I simply could not bear to face the fact that my butler, the one I had ever-so-greatly trusted had believed the rumors, so I covered this blemish by paying him even more for his service. Even after increases in wage, I could not get my butler to stop glancing at my eye. I realize now, that this should have been the first red flag that went up in my head.
The night that everything changed for the worse, I was lying in my bed, fast asleep, until I heard my door creak. There was no other possible explanation, I knew this sound well. I bolted straight up in bed crying, “Who’s there?” Even with no response, no movement, and no other sounds, I sensed presence in my chamber. I should have gotten up to investigate this odd sensation, but I froze where I was and sat there for more than an hour.
It was then that he struck. After a long while of waiting for action, I had slowly drifted off to sleep again, giving my butler the perfect opportunity to make his move. I knew what was happening even though I seemed sleeping. I sensed it in a way indescribable.
I vowed to myself that my heartbeat would haunt him forever, cursing him for where I am now, even though I believe myself to be above.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Maybe...


I wish someone had told me,
How it was going to be.
Once life had gone,
The same old song,
Maybe I'd have a chance.
Maybe.
I wish someone had told me,
The day sitting under the tree.
All the hurt, all the pain,
The never ending game.
Maybe I'd have a chance.
Maybe.
I wish someone had told me,
That it wasn't going to be alright.
That life isn't perfect.
And neither am I.

Maybe I'd have a chance.
Maybe.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Numbers


 Author's Note: As a tribute to the 13th anniversary of the Columbine High School shootings, I wrote this piece. This poem is very symbolic to numbers and yet, the meaning of them are so true. Please comment on what you think the numbers symbolize and maybe... maybe I'll tell you... :)

Twenty.
The life shattering number.
The number of pain,
The number of shock,
The number of death.
Thirteen.
The unlucky number.
The number of tears from the rose,
The number of minutes,
The number of victims.
One.
The fate or destiny number.
The number of seconds,
The number of anticipation,
The number of possibility.


Sunday, April 15, 2012

The Time

Always will be that force pushing you toward,
Toward goals, wants, dreams.
It is burning in your soul,
A soul full of flames.
 Fire of determination,
The determination sparking in you.
It sets you on fire and watches you go,
Go towards the sky, towards life.

Life is fueled by determination.

Always will be that force resisting you,
You being pulled away.
Away from the possibilities,
Possibilities that are simply that.
A band of regret,
Regret stretching across what could be.
The uncertainties of life,
Life puzzled, confused of the unknown.

Life is held in the hand of uncertainties.

Always will be determination and uncertainty,
Uncertainty and determination.
There will always be the battle,
Battle locking you in the middle.
You are enclosed in each,
Each fighting the other and each fighting you.
You are the only one that can stop it,
It is only time, now,
That can determine when you will shatter under the forces.

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

Entrance


Entrance by Dana Gioia is portrayed as an extended metaphor, the "entrance" symbolizing stepping out of insecurities of life; instead facing the new challenges that life throws at you. One of the first lines in this poem is “out of the room that makes you feel secure.” This line is saying that it is expected to go beyond the securities and, rather, to take a risk in life in order to make your life worth living. A few lines later it is stated “with eyes that have forgotten how to see,” and I think that this line is really disguised as “with a life that has forgotten how to have fun.” The meaning of this poem all in all was just to step out of the boundaries others and go beyond the expectations to have great memories.
After reading this piece I was inspired to leave the past behind and “gently set it free.”

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

Tacks & Splinters

Author's Note: We were asked to write a reflection to Langston Hughes' poem Mother to Son. You can read this poem at: http://www.tnellen.com/cybereng/matoson.html. Enjoy! :)

 
There are lots of symbolic terms throughout the poem Mother to Son by Langston Hughes. Reading the poem, you could probably figure out that this Mother is comparing life to stairs. Although it is thought there is not more, if you dig deeper, you can find the true meanings to other phrases as well.
For example, this poem talks about tacks and splinters. These items represent the challenges faced in life. Both of these things though, have double meanings. They can be thought of as the hard-ships of life, but, looking at a tack, can’t it be useful as well? A tack can either hold things together or break things apart—in this case, being used for breaking apart. A splinter resembles how worn out and old life really is. If stairs were being worked hard for years, they would produce splinters. A splinter is also showing tiny faults and mistakes made along the path of life as a tiny splinter can make all of the difference when stepped on. Another term used in Mother to Son is the idea of “boards torn up.” I think that this relates to life because although you have set down the “construction for your life,” they can still be ripped apart by others, and you have to lay the ground-work again. “Places with no carpet on the floor” is mentioned in this poem as well and I think that it symbolizes the fact that carpeting is really a want not a need; we use carpet to make our floors look prettier, to hide the flaws underneath. Everyone has insecurities in their life and I think that Langston Hughes is portraying this by stating “places with no carpet on the floor.”
After reading all of these symbolic phrases sprinkled throughout Mother to Son, I was left in a very inspired and achieving mood.





The Victorious

Author's Note: This is my comparative piece--comparing Animal Farm and the Berlin Wall... sounds boring right? Well, I got a 10 for idea development just because it wasn't boring. So, enjoy!

 
There is a wall in every life.  There is always that break that separates hero from villain, friend from foe, and the victorious from the defeated.  There is a wall in every life, as there is a life in every wall.

This theory is portrayed in the book, Animal Farm, and its connection to the construction of the Berlin Wall, 1961. The Berlin Wall’s first intent was to show that the government had power to do what they wanted (The Construction of The Berlin Wall). We are taught from the past and from Animal Farm that communist societies end up separated as two different sides: the equals and the more equals (133). In short, they simply do not work.

If I were to mention “The Berlin Wall,” to you, what would you imagine? A stone wall, rising above the mountains, reaching the sky? A brick masterpiece, enclosing around you, stretching as long as the Wall of China? Barbed wire elongated no more than five miles? Because, that is exactly how the Berlin Wall started. Just a few miles of barbed wire was how communism started in Germany (Berlin Wall Online). The barbed wire in Animal Farm is when the animals isolated themselves from the Humans. The idea of the Berlin Wall upgrading to concrete blocks and the government separating themselves from the rest of the country, only to become dictators, is seen in Animal Farm, when the pigs, little by little, end up “more equal” than the other animals. The intent though, of these two situations is entirely different from what the ending result was. The intent of the construction of the wall was communism, equality, and fairness, while it ended up in the end as dictatorship, discrimination, and unfairness.

Before this closed wall was put to place, there was a wall that divided East Germany and West Germany (The Berlin Wall Online). The only difference between the two was that you were able to pass through the first wall with permission. In Animal Farm, there had always been a separation between the Animals and the Humans; there was just a little opening that allowed the Animals to interact with the Humans. Once East Germany had a lot more economical hardships than West Germany, things went downhill. Over 2.6 million people from East Germany had escaped to West Germany because West Germany was getting economical help from the United States. This relates to Animal Farm, because Mollie had been “traveling through the wall,” as she was getting sugar and ribbons from the Humans after the Animals had rebelled.  Also, since West Berlin (representing the Humans in Animal Farm,) had more money and food than East Germany (representing the Animals,) the pigs had also moved to West Germany.  When the wall closed though, which side were these animals stuck on? Mollie and the pigs were some of the—figurative– 2.6 million that escaped to West Germany, and escaped the life of an Animal.

A communism society was put into place after the government and the pigs had rebelled. This means that there are rules put into place so that everyone is equal; everyone gets the same rations, everyone is given the same amount of living space, and everyone is treated the same. But, if you really think about it, are societies such as these really possible to achieve? If everyone is getting the same amount of rations, who is handing them out? Who is deciding the amount given? If everyone is given the same amount of living space, who is regulating that? If everyone is treated the same, who is monitoring the equality?  Who is making sure that these rules are actually happening? The answer to all of these questions: dictators. Communist societies almost never, in the end, are true communist societies, because there is always someone or a group of people that are found to be organizing these rules. This is reflected on in Animal Farm, because once the Animals force the Humans out, the pigs, bit by bit, end up dictating Animal Farm. Rules, bit by bit, are changed to fit the personal needs of the pigs and the pigs alone. No animal shall sleep in a bed is changed to No animal shall sleep in a bed with sheets. No animal shall drink is quickly corrected, by the pigs; No animal shall drink to excess (113). This is the major issue with having a communist society; rules are changed the slightest bit to fit the needs of the dictator, not the entire community.

After the government had found out that people from East Germany were escaping to West Berlin and from there traveling to West Germany, the government had enforced officers to watch the wall and make sure no one was escaping illegally (The Construction of The Berlin Wall). These men officials were trained around the age of 25, very young just to be shooting those who disobeyed the government. Over 600 people of the 2.6 million that had escaped died being shot by guards or in other ways attempting escape (The Berlin Wall Online). This relates to Animal Farm, as the dogs born early on were taken by Napoleon, the pig, in order to train them to follow Napoleon’s commands (68). Also, lots of animals died literally or died figuratively because of Napoleon’s dictatorship, similar to the deaths of the Berlin Wall. One example is Mollie; once she had made her decision to live with humans, the pigs had just used her as an excuse as to why they weren’t as far in work. Snowball was chased off of Animal Farm, only giving the pigs someone to blame for their doings. This was the end for all people and animals aside from the dictators; the government and the pigs.

With some people on the West, some people on the East, some Animals on the West, and others on the East, it is difficult to tell who is who anymore. Many escape from one side of their wall and crawl to the other, though many are left in the hands of dictators. As quoted on page 139 of Animal Farm, “The faces outside looked from pig to man and from man to pig, and from pig to man again; but already it was impossible to say which was which.”

So, which side of the wall are you on; West or East? Or, more for the matter; are you a Human or an Animal?

Are you victorious, or left defeated?

Bibliography

Berlin Wall Online. 19 March 2012 <http://www.dailysoft.com/berlinwall/history/index.htm>.

Orwell, George. Animal Farm. n.d.

The Construction of The Berlin Wall. 19 March 2012 <http://www.berlin.de/mauer/geschichte/index.en.html>.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Footprints

Author's Note: As a lot of my pieces are, this piece is very symbolic to a phrase. I would like to see what you interpret of this piece... comment!

The day I met you,
You strolled into my house and scattered footprints on the tiles.
Not caring the least,
As I stared at you, laughing at your confidence to be you.
You just smiled,
And questioned why those marks were even left there.
Yet now I know.
After you,
I have welcomed people to my life.
And people have walked,
On the same floor you did, although they were tidy.
Not a single mark,
Was visible on my forever stretching ground.
Now I know why.
And today,
I kneel on the ground that you had walked upon.
Grinning at the past,
And finding the answer to your question.
Those footprints,
Are left on my life because you won't be forgotten.
Those footprints,
Were meant to mark my life.